Cheese with my whine....

[kjazzygirl]

Sorry - I just needed to vent! One week I'm bragging about how I've drawn the line with my son, etc. etc. and this week I cave and give him money! How many times am I gonna let him play me like this? I just get so tired sometimes.........and instead of sticking to my guns and taking him to the grocery store to make sure he buys groceries, I cave and give him cash. He's probably buying heroine right now. Sometimes I am just too tired to deal with him - does anyone else get like that? I just give him the money to get rid of him - Is that awful? Throw money and it goes away! I just need some back-up support I think. I've been dealing with this for 3 years now - I am tired. Either he can support himself or he can't. If he can't, then he should try to get disability. I know....I keep holding out...he's working now, but it's a sales job and he hasn't gotten his first paycheck yet. I'm going broke just putting gas in the car. MY car that he is using and I'm going without! It's like I've been here so MANY times before with him....and he always lets me down. Why can't I just give up? Right now I feel trapped. If he at least had his own transportation, I'd feel better. I am so afraid he's going to wreck my car. Oh well, maybe everyone can say a few prayers for us? Thanks for letting me vent - I actually do feel better. And I don't mean to offend anyone - I just really needed to get all that off my chest. Kat

[scifinut]

((Hugs))

Have you taken NAMI's Family To Family class? If not, I highly recommend it. You will meet other families going through similar stuff that you are going through. They will also give you resources that could really be helpful.

((Hugs))

[kjazzygirl]

Yes, I took the F2F class - and I agree - it was great!! I also go to support group twice a month. I'm thinking maybe since we didn't have group twice in November due to Thanksgiving, that I am just a little overdue for some "talk therapy"............glad I had Pendulum to vent to!

How are things with you?

[scifinut]

Things are tenatively better. My daughter is now taking Lexapro to help with the depression and it seems to be working pretty well. She was feeling well enough to go to a friend's house for an overnighter this weekend. She hasn't done that in a while and I can tell she is feeling a bit more social. I'm always cautious when she is on an AD as she's had some rather negative reactions to them in the past. Still working on school issues. That will probably be an ongoing process for the rest of the year.

Hope things get better for you. ((Hugs))